While I’m at it…
Aug 27, 2008
Categories: poetry
I haven’t posted a poem in ages, because i haven’t written one in as long. So, good or bad, here it is.
the hole i left in you
is vaguely female-shaped,
like a symbol on a ladies’ room door,
and i’ve been watching you
try to convince old friends and forced acquaintances
to fill it in for you
since the moment i left my key
on the kitchen counter.
in the beginning of our time together
i recognized the vagueness
in the way you said “somebody”
after your needs and wants
rather than “you,” but i wish
that when you’d asked me later on to be your steph
it had meant you were molding
that soft place in your chest
to fit only me–
the way our warm spiced-wine blankets
and the crook of your arm
on shiny saturday mornings seemed to–
and that i had been able
to comply.
i lie in that same bed now
alone, dreaming of the feeling
of the final days,
the bitter misunderstanding
and tense silences,
packing boxes with the knives
we used to cut them with,
the hard corners of the bare walls
and the edges of heavy furniture
and i wish that you
or anyone else i’d ever left
had asked me to stay.
because the truth is
the hole in me was made by a man
much taller than you
and never quite healed
down to your size.
From My Personal Life to Yours
Aug 26, 2008
Categories: art
If i was a painter, i’d paint this. Maybe i’ll give it a shot anyway.
My New Place
Aug 21, 2008
Categories: apartments, life
Here are some interior photos of the new place. It’s extremely difficult to photograph an interior without distorting it to look bigger than it actually is, so i apologize for not being very talented with that. It is pretty big and empty, though, other than the bathroom and the kitchen.
This is what you see when you walk in the front door
What you see from the other side of the room
Dining nook. The table really wouldn’t fit any other way.
My bedroom - and the awesome dresser i scored on Craigslist
The other bedroom still has all my boxes piled up in it
The bathroom is so tiny i can’t even photograph it properly. That green rug is right in front of the bathtub, if you can imagine that. There are cabinets and closets that i didn’t bother to photograph in the bedrooms & hallway. It’s pretty nice, somewhat lonely but mom comes over and keeps me company quite a bit, and i’ve even had some friends over. My birthday party was pretty sweet. 
There’s been a lot of drama going on in my life recently, and if you haven’t already heard all about it you should give me a call.
The Procession
Aug 20, 2008
Categories: relationships, blogging
The Standard Procession after Breaking Up with Steph Adamo:
1. Get a haircut.
2. Tell her you’re going to be fine
3. Decide you’re actually not fine, and write shit about her on your blog where you do realize she will see it.
The decent ones apologize and take it down. The dicks go on writing worse and worse stuff.
I’m with my dear friend Mike Tomlinson on the whole breaking up issue–why can’t people just date for a while, have a nice couple of years together and then part ways peacefully, being glad to have had that time together?
Something fun for Friday
Aug 15, 2008
Categories: movies, relationships
This is a classic, classic rant. Enjoy.
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